Of all the fear projects presented in class, the one that stood out to me the most was Stuart's. 

He brought in envelopes with everyone’s name, had us write down our fears about ourselves, then had us shred them in a shredder he brought to class. 
His experiment was extremely symbolic and really spoke to me. 

Fear has kept me from experiencing a lot in my life so far, it has had a hand in ruining some of my relationships with people, and I fear it will keep me from enjoying the rest of my life at its full potential. I do believe fear is necessary in life, it can keep us from danger, and help us make important decisions, but you should not let fear take control of your life. 

I believe to some point the only thing to fear is fear itself, and I believe if I can just “shred” some of those fears out of my mind, then I will be able to accomplish so much more. 

Experiment

What makes me fearful is not succeeding in my field of study.

 I want to be an animator, I want to work for an impressive company someday such as Disney or Cartoon Network. I love drawing and I love cartoons. I would love to be a storyboard artist and help create great shows for people to enjoy.

The animation business is very technological these days. People don’t just hand draw cartoons any more, they use computer software and devises such as drawing pads hooked up to their computers. I am scared of these things because they are hard for me to use. I feel like I am behind the times and won’t be able to do what I love because I am not talented enough.

I have noticed that when I am afraid of something, it is hard for me to face it. Most of the time I just try to ignore my fears and do something that brings me joy. This is extremely counterproductive because without practice I will never get better. Fear keeps me from bettering myself. Fear doesn’t motivate me, it holds me back.

For my fear experiment I decided to work with my INTUOS drawing pad to recreate something I hand drew.

It was just a doodle I drew while watching cartoons, but I liked the way it turned out.

Then I hooked up my drawing pad to my computer and tried redrawing it with the ArtRage app. 

In the end I am not very satisfied with what I created, but I am proud of myself for trying.